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SENIOR PROM 2009- June 13th, 2009

Posted on 2009.06.14 at 15:59
Nikki woke me up at 7 on Prom Day. I hadn't planned to wake up so early because then I would be tired and I wouldn' t be able to stay awake at the prom. For most of the morning, I watched Sex and the City. Prom started at 9, no need to rush. I didn't know what to expect so I wasn't all excited and rushed or anything like that. It was just another day.

At 2 or so, my dad drove me to Creative Nails and Spa, my uncle Richson's nail salon (ALL Vietnamese people do nails- I have like 4 aunts and uncles who do nails). I haven't been there in MONTHS. Haven't been there since the summertime, when I worked there. They redecorated, so it looks so frickin' nice. It used to be like white or something, plain, a bit messy, but now it's like this melon-orange color, with a tropical kind of theme, a new sign outside, a couple wallpaper things with tropical scenes on it, and these box-like frame things that make cool pictures on the wall. My uncle did well. My aunt, Richson's wife, doesn't like my family. She got beef. I was gonna get my nails done, and I was planning on getting it for free because Uncle Richson is family, and family members are supposed to get 100 percent family discounts, right? But my mommy didn't want his wife to be all "Ohhhh, they're so poor they can't afford to pay for their daughter to get her nails done, blah blah blah" (She is always complaining about us- especially me and Dialena. SHE'S the reason we got fired), so my mom gave me like 40 dollars to get a full set, which is basically, they put fake, white tips on your nails and then puts this gel thing over it. My nails look maddd sexy. Dialena and her friend, Linda, who was going to Prom with Kunthea, stopped by also, and we all got our nails done. I tried to pay my uncle but he was all "I don't need your money" and "Nooo, you keep it." When he went outside to smoke, I put it in his drawer. He deserves it. That man works MADD hard and he's so good at what he does. That's why everyone's always requesting him. 

We went back to my house (me and Dialena) and I put on Sex and the City, and we watched it while she started curling every single inch of my hair. Dialena is very good with hair. We almost ran out of time; we were planning on going to this Rose Garden thing to take pictures, and Dialena had to get dressed, too. Her date was Phi. Me and her had agreed on a style a couple days before, and she did it nicely- she let a couple loose strands around my face, my bangs straight, and all the rest of my hair tied on the right side. My mom later added this beautiful butterfly clip in my hair to hold some of my bangs out of my face. I got dressed- my dress was white with like a silver sash around the middle. Simple. I wore white flats because I can't walk in heels and luckily, Roberto is pretty short and I didn't want to be taller than him. I hadn't planned on wearing makeup, but my mom literally had to wrestle it on me; I was pouting and half-sobbing the entire time. But in the end, my face looked clearer, my mascara kept smearing, but I managed, and I looked ....well, pretty, actually. Which is something you don't hear from me often. 


Sokha dropped Phi and Roberto off at my house, and they had to come in and put our corsages on and take pictures and stuff. They both looked SO nice. When I saw Roberto walk up towards my house, I was surprised. I hadn't thought he would look THAT good. And I'm not just saying all of this because I adore him, but he really looked insanely good. INSANELY GOOD in his clean black tuxedo, with a silver vest and tie. My corsage was so pretty, but I had a hard time putting on his bouttanniere thing so my mom tried to help- even my dad. We managed to get it on (correctly, or incorrectly, I'm not sure).


Dialena was wearing a black dress, with a light blue sash. Her and Phi didn't match (blue is a hard color to match- he was wearing a navy-blueish shirt with his tux, she made him go home and change). She wore heels and her hair was mad asian and simple. HA. I looked better. But we all looked nice, I guess. 

After taking pictures, we went to Sokha's house, took photos, and finally we piled into two cars- Linda, Dialena, and Jeanie in one car, and the boys- Roberto, Tony (Kunthea invited him for no good reason), Phi and Kunthea, and went to the garden thing and took pictures, and then we went to the prom.

IT WAS CRAZY downtown by the Landmark Theater. The Landmark Theater was all aglow with lights and a sign that read: Nottingham Senior Prom, Class of 09... It was beautiful. There was the hugest crowd all around the place, HUNDREDS of people simply there to watch us go in. We had to get in line as couples, and then take pictures with 3 different cameras, as people stared and cheered. It made us all feel like celebrities. 

Everyone was so beautiful. EVERYONE MATCHED! Like SO WELL! With their couples, I mean. There were a few people who didn't look great, but overall, everyone looked beautiful. Like, I mean it. It was just nice watching them. 

Dancing was nonexistant, almost. There were a few people who danced. The music was all like gangster rap and stuff like "Knock You Down" and shit. I danced once with Roberto, a slow dance, which lasted for a minute after they announced Prom King - Nelson, no suprise, I don't know him, but everyone seems to adore him- and Prom Queen- Leondra. 

There was a section where you could go and take a professional picture taken, and buy it. I bought one with the money my mom gave me specifically to buy it. The camera guy showed me the correct way to put on a bouttanniere. 

Me and Roberto mostly sat on the staircase on the lower floor. Not a lot of people came down there, and whoever did just came down there to be in quietness, and relax. Me and him talked and kissed and talked and kissed. And then we left. Roberto went to the AfterProm with everyone else. I didn't feel like going, I was tired, so my grandpa came and picked me up. And that was that, end of Prom. 


The Landmark Theater is so beautiful, a good place for a prom. Getting ready for the prom, and entering the prom with all the chaos and cameras and stuff were my favorite parts of the prom. I guess I didn't enjoy it as much because it wasn't MY prom. I didn't go to school with these kids for the past 4 years. I'm positive my own prom will be out of this world. I'm more excited about it now that I got a glimpse of what it's like. 
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Note: This entry was more for my benefit, so I'll always have it to look back on. I'm sorry it's not entirely entertaining. It wasn't meant to be.



bubbles

Jeanie's Official (In No Order) List of Hot Male Celebrities

Posted on 2009.06.12 at 18:31
Current Music: Breathe- Lee Carr
1. The beautiful, the luscious ORLANDO BLOOM.
He's so mmmm. And so yesssss. And so yummmm. I mean, he's a bit older now, but he'll always have the amazing sex appeal. To every sane female, that is.

 



2. Channing Tatum. CHECK OUT HIS BODY, LADIES.




3. Justin Chambers. LOVE him as Alex on Grey's Anatomy. Not the prettiest face, but there's just something about him...



4. Zac Efron. Gorgeous smile. HOT body. He can dance. He can sing. He's HOT.




5. I never thought of adding this fella to the list, but after looking at someone else's list for inspiration, I decided he MUST be on here. From the Spider Man movies, I present James Franco.

Yes. His picture is the largest because LiveJournal won't let me shrink it. Oh well. I don' t mind. Do you?


6. Chad Michael Murray. A God. 



7. Owen Wilson. I never noticed how hot he was until I watched Wedding Crashers.



8. Enrique Iglesias. I love Hispanic men.



Can't think of anymore at the moment. But I gotta pretty good list, eh?


bubbles

New Song Obsession

Posted on 2009.05.31 at 19:47

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me and vanni minus vanni

This Made Me Smile

Posted on 2009.05.23 at 22:04

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bubbles

DRAINED.

Posted on 2009.05.20 at 18:31

I'm in my dark place.

socks

OH LOOKIE, TINA, AN ENTRY!

Posted on 2009.05.15 at 21:50
Current Mood: sore
Current Music: Untouched. The Veronicas.

I don't know what to write. It's very difficult to keep two journals, because I hate repeating information. My personal journal (not this one) is more important to me, so I would write everything I wouldn't write on here, plus everything else. But Tina wants to know what's going on in my miserable life, so I, kindly, write a form of that journal entry on here. Which is exhausting because there's only so many times you can tell a story about your day before you get completely sick of it.

Agenda for the Next Couple of Weeks.
Monday, May 18th- Going to the Zoo with Superintendent Cabinet. Very excited, actually. Not to see Lidia though. We went to elementary school together, and she used to be very sweet, and now she's one of those girls. You know, myspace whore. Cocky. Not to mention that she and my now ex-boyfriend had been flirting a storm on myspace (I still have not let that go) when me and him were going out.
Wednesday, May 20th- CNY Works for job interview. I'm desperate for a job, but I am still debating on whether or not I want to do this. Because I'm missing a series of classes on Monday, and I'm gonna miss the SAME classes on Wednesday, and I don't like having to catch up. And stuff. So I probably won't go. But.. eh.
Sunday, May 24th- Haven't asked my parents yet or anything, but Carli wants me to sleep over.
Monday, May 25th- No school. Carli wants T-T-T-Tina to join us on this day to hang out.
Wednesday, May 27th- For our Short Stories project, we each have to pick a short story and teach an 80 minute class on it. This day is my day to teach. I'm actually very much looking forward to it.


I forgot when the finals and regents and stuff are.


So it's weird that I'm not shooting into a full entry about HIM, right? Well.  Yeah. It is. But I don't know what I could possibly write about him now.

Of course, I COULD obsess about his beautiful-ness some more, but I'm guessing whoever's reading this is probably sick of it.
But I'm not.

I seriously can NOT get over it.

But he sits with me practically every day now. And now he knows how to spell my name. And he hugs me everyday before he gets off the bus (awkwardly because of the weird angle), but still. I don't know.

He doesn't talk much. He's beautiful, but I wish he had a personality to match. Of course, he didn't talk much today because he was tired after his ESL fieldtrip to some lake or whatever, but still. I'm tired all the time and I still manage to have a soul.

Of courseeeeeeeeeeee I'm gonna keep trying. Because liking him or somewhat crushing on him, or whatever you want to call it, gives me something to look forward to. And these days, everyone needs something to look forward to, na mean? It's pathetic, but it gives me a purpose to wake up in the morning. Don't take the meaning of that to the fullest extent. I mean it in the lightest way.

But I'm tired, and my parents are bitching for me to get off, so I'm gonna go write in my real journal,and then go back to sleep.

bubbles

TINA! I had a nice day on the bus :D

Posted on 2009.04.27 at 17:28
Current Mood: hot
Current Music: My baby sister is watching Wow Wow Wubbzy on the Noggin. :D so cute
Today, on the bus, Rolando sat with me. Beautiful Rolando. I had had a good day in Tech Theater (my assignment was to write a menu on this blackboard for the play our school's putting on in a couple of weeks. I had fun; I got to do it alone, so no distractions really, and I had my music on, so it was all peaceful and stuff.) I went to sit in my usual seat on the bus. I listened to my mp3. Ohmy it was so hot. The air felt like I could cut through it with a knife. Ew.

Rolando came on the bus. I mostly expected him to sit in one of the many empty seats. Quite a few people skipped today. But he came on the bus, in his beautiful turquoise shirt ( I LOVE THAT COLOR!), and we were looking at eachother, and then he smiled and sat down. WHOOOOOOOO. I guess we're reallll friends!

It was really hot. Like ICKY hot.

He put his arm on the back of my seat, like kinda around my shoulders.

I wondered what he was doing. What if someone saw us like that? 

He attempted to open the window.




Oh.
XD



Anywayssss. Like always, I can't remember the entire conversation or anything.

Things I learned about him:
-He has no idea what he wants to be.
-He has no siblings. (I KNEW IT! HE LOOOOOKS LIKE AN ONLY CHILD!)
-He HATES cats. He likes dogs.
-He does not care much for animals overall.
-He really likes Los Tres Gatos. (He had like 8 of their songs on his iTouch.)
-He does really good in Gym.
-He has 100 in Gym and a couple of other classes.

He does not think I look Asian. He said he can tell I do well in school. He hates the music I listen to. (Hahaha, I kept taking his headphones off, then putting mine in and going "THIS is real music" and "Let me show you REAL music." He would scoff or laugh, then make fun of the music I listen to, then show me a song that he constitutes as good music. We hate eachother's music. Don't worry. I will show him the light.)

I think he tried to take a picture of me with his camera phone. Luckily I caught him. And I grabbed onto the phone. And I would NOT let go. And we just spent a couple of minutes fighting over it.
him:"GIVE ME BACK MY PHONE!"
me: "NO!"
him: "I WONT DO ANYTHING"
me: "you promise?" (still holding onto the phone)
him: "i promise"
me: "do you have a religion? do you believe in anything?"
him: "no"
me: "so your an atheist?"
him: "yes?"
me: "do you know what that is?"
him: "you dont believe in anything?"
(i gave the phone back.)


I can't remember anything else. My mind went fuzzy.

Is his eyes green or brown? They change everyday!



Friday.

Was pretty damn cool.


But before I get to the cool parts....
I had swimming that day. All the classes were shortened because of the Festival, so we had all four classes in four hours. Pretty simple. So anyways, I had swimming. I was fucking terrified, let me tell you. I'm not scared of water. I'm not scared of the shallow end. I'm not scared of being underwater (but only for a short time). But Mr. Dixon MADE us all go into the deep end. They strapped me in a lifejacket and then he FORCED me to jump in (let me add that he kept making fun of my terrified face). I was so scared, it was ridiculous. I wanted to cry- that' show much I didn't want to jump in. But I knew that I would have to do it sooner or later, so I jumped. And for three seconds, I felt like I was going to drown and die. And then the lifejacket pulled me back up. But still- having the lifejacket on did not make me feel better, or safer or anything. And then he tried to make me jump off the high dive. Which I absolutely refuseddddddddd to do.


If you know how to swim, I have complete respect for you. Kudos.

SOOO. Let's get to the real reason why I'm even writing this entry.

The Multicultural Festival. The title is self-explanatory. So there's no need for me to explain what it is, right? 
The gym was packed with booths with lots of different foods, almost everyone in our school, a bunch of people dressed in the clothes of their culture... it was a quite a sight. But. Me. Being "lovestruck" as Tina likes to call it, simply searched for him. I did that casual scan around the gym thing. I did not see him. I saw his friends. But he wasn't with them. So I looked for my friends instead. For a bit of time, I sat on the bleachers with Jessica, Abby, and Kayleigh. And I was in such a bad mood- 1) because I didn't see him, and I really planned on talking to him that day and 2) because I didn't want to sit on the bleachers and watch people. I wanted to be in the center of the action! So, telling them that I was going to show them how I could disappear into the crowd, I ditched them. HA. (Tina, I'm badass right? Ditching mahhh friendssss just to go find a boy, right?)


So I move towards the crowd of people around the little area where the African Drumming group was performing. (They were fantastic, by the way. Very energetic.) And suddenly, I saw him. There was his gorgeous self, in a black shirt, watching the performance. I didn't want to be a creep. Wouldn't you be creeped out, if you turned around, and there was a white-Asian girl staring at you? Yeah. I thought so. So I moved away from him, and went to stand behind a girl I had Spanish with. Berto joined me for a bit, but I sent him off to find Tina.

But I found Tina instead! She was holding a plate of food, talking to Mr. Little.

And in the same instance, I noticed him, standing by himself, in an area where the crowd wasn't so dense. "Tina, I'm gonna do something," I whispered to mahhhh friend, Tinaaaaaa. (Either that, or I said, "Tinaaa, I'm gonna talk to him".) But first, I tried to mentally prepare myself. He had looked over me, and noticed me staring at him, so I figured he knew that I was going to approach him. What should I sayyyy? Hmmmm... But Tina ripped me from my thoughts (gotta love her) and literally pulled me over there. (you reallllly gotta love her). And I don't remember what she did to get his attention... she either made a loud noise, or she touched him. But he looked over at me, and we exchanged our hi's. It was a bit awkward at first. It was so loud, and we couldn't talk comfortably; and whenever either of us wanted to say anything, we had to say it directly in eachother's ear. So for a while, we just listened to the music, and examined the map/program that were given to the student body.

"Let's go over there."

Like he seriously did not just ditch me. He invited me to come with him. HE DID NOT DITCH ME. That is a might positive. RIGHT, TINA?! I hope...?

We walked over to where we could see the performers better, and on the way, we passed Indiana, and Mackenzie and stuff sitting on the bleachers. I saw her face (which greatly amused me.. not to be mean... she's nice.. I guess...). She looked a bit shocked. Kinda like, "Oh... So he'll talk to her." Might be cocky of me to say so, but I felt... good? Because I was able to befriend someone that Indiana couldn't get to give her the time of day. Tina prophesized that if Indiana ever saw me talking to Rolando (whom she likes, if I have no mentioned that yet), she would come over to us, and pretend to be my best friend. The fake little... That's EXACTLY what she did. My Tina is a frickin' psychic.

Before she arrived, I told Rolando that Indiana was staring, and that she was gonna come over. To which he responded: "Who?" (HAHAHA) I had to describe her to him: "You knowwwww. The small child with dark hair..."
Him: "Hahaha. 'Child'?"

AND SHE GLUED HERSELF TO ME. Seriously. She kept trying to talk to me. And that pissed me off so bad. But I tried my best to ignore her, and concentrated on making converation with Rolando, who IS actually very sweet (to me that is, whenever Indiana asked him a question, like, "Are you having fun, Rolando?" he would answer with a simple, "yeah"). He was all cold at first, but I guess he's warmed up to me. And he's so beautiful... CONCENTRATE JEANIE!

Tina Baneena told me after the Fest that Indiana thought I was talking to him FOR her. Cocky son of a bitch... She's an idiot. She's clueless, swear to Jeezus.

While watching the African dancers dance, this interaction took place:
Me: I wish I was African.
Him: Why?
Me: Because they get to wear pretty dresses.(The African girls that were dancing were wearing colorful dresses that I liked.)
Him: But you would smell bad. (Referring to the... odd body odor that most of the Africans in our school have. If that offends anyone... I'm sorry, but it's true. We are in no way trying to be ignorant.)
Me: No! I would be a clean African!
Him: No, you wouldn't! If you were African, it's like your religion to bathe once a month!
Me: BUT I'M AN ATHEIST. I HAVE NO RELIGION. I WOULD BE CLEAN!
And so on.


He was standing on my right side, and then I felt a poke on my left side. I ALWAYS FALL FOR THAT. I looked over my left shoulder, then made a 360 degree turn, just to find him completely serious. And I didn't think he would play around with me like that. So I didn't think it would be him poking me. I would pout or something, and then he would start laughing. It's fun to mess with me, I guess. He laughs at me a lot.

Things I have learned about him:
-He was born in Cuba.
-He's turning 15 on May 1st.
-He can swim.
-He can do flips and such. 

I tried to give him my program for his birthday. Which he wouldn't accept. Because mine was ripped and he already had one. So in the end, we traded. And then we both threw them away.

"I'll see you Monday" he said as he was getting off the bus.
"Have a nice weekend" I replied, ever so smoothly.
"You too."


And he was gone.

I'm seeing him tomorrow.

I'm sorry Tina. I know that was not as juicy as you would have liked. But I don't know how to put that whole day into words. Sorry, love.

turquoise dress

Writer's Block: LiveJournal Book Club

Posted on 2009.04.26 at 17:38
Current Mood: cheerful
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Out of all of your favorite books, pick just one you'd recommend everyone read. As a bonus: why did you pick that one?


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Change of Heart by Jodi Picoult. Seriously, this lady is a phenomenal writer. I loved the first book I read of hers, My Sister's Keeper, so I decided that I would probably love any of her books. So I read this one.

And I couldn't put it down.

It speaks of religion. Miracles.

The plot is basically... a strange, quiet man who comes to work for June Nealon murders her daughter, and the girl's step father. And then a bunch of miracles occur and soon everyone thinks he's like the Messiah or Jesus or something. The girl he murdered has a sister, that has  a heart problem. He wants nothing more than to donate his heart to this girl before he is sentenced to death.
 
I haven't read it in a while (I JUST requested it from the library, like 3 seconds ago, because this question reminded me to) so I can't give out any more details that would be intriguing enough for you to read it.

But seriously.
READ IT.

And might I add that if anyone answers "Twilight" to this question, I will send a pack of drunk leprechauns to mug you. I myself was a Twihard. I loved Edward Cullen, and his love for Bella, like, I loved the overall plot. But after re-reading it a couple of weeks ago, I've come to the conclusion, that the book is poorly written. Great plot, don't get me wrong, but it's made mostly of dialogue. Go to urbandictionary.com and search "Twilight". You will find I am not the only one who feels this way.

bubbles

2nd Letter to Ex-Best Friend

Posted on 2009.04.26 at 17:30
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: Defeated- Tynisha Keli

Shaynaaaaaa,
 
 
I miss you too.
 
 
Why would you think I wouldn't write back to you? I honestly am not still holding a grudge against you or anything. I like to think that I've matured as well. And I'm really glad that you sent the email. It kinda feels like we're tying up some old loose ends or something. (?) "Unfinished" is a nice way of putting it. Finally talking to you about it makes me feel better as well.
 
Hahahaha. About the "whore" thing. None of us were whores. You might have been flirty, or "boy crazy" but that doesn't make you a whore. In the seventh grade, WHENEVER we got in a fight, we would always call eachother "fat" (our weakness) and "whores" and stuff. Remember when the teachers found the letter I wrote to you, and gave it Mrs. Gerber, and she spoke to us about us calling Vanni a whore? And she asked us if we knew what a whore exactly was. Haha, I guess we didn't. We were all virgins (I hope you're still a virgin, missy. If not, I want all the details right now.) Shayna, you were not a whore. (And you're not a whore now. You've been with David since the age of the dinosaurs.) We called you that because we didn't know how else to put it. I guess we were all a bit bitchy back then? I'm ashamed of how I was back then.
 
You never liked Brenden? Didn't you like him, at the time, in the moment, though? Even a little? I remember (I say that a lot) it was in the auditorium when you told me that you liked him. And I wanted to be an encouraging friend so I tried to be happy for you, and encouraged you to go for it. And wasn't that when he came in and sat next to us, and we tried to tell him you liked him?
 
Anywayssss, hahaha don't worry about the telling-me-I-look-like-a-man-in-my-yearbook-picture incident. Yeah, it hurt my feelings (I really don't want to look like a man) and I know you didn't mean it. Why the hell would you be jealous. JESUS. You never realized how pretty you were, and are. Blonde hair and green eyes? Dammmmmmmmmnnnn. Get some confidence, child.
 
You're right. Noelle is like the farthest thing from a man.
 
You weren't all honey-sweet and angelic but you weren't mean. You were simply honest. Which is cool. I wish I could be honest. It was just, sometimes, you didn't realize what you were saying. Ciara's the same way (except she's more severely honest. We say often that she needs a filter over her mouth.)
 
And about the thing that happened last year, why wouldn't you blame us? What lesson did you need to learn? How were you out of control? And what did you originally think was the reason we kicked you out? You know, we could've given you another chance. I could've said to the group, "Hey, people make mistakes. Give her one more chance." But I didn't. Things might've been A LOT different if I had balls back then (sorry to say, I still don't have any balls.) And by chance, do you remember exactly what you showed Danielle? I keep thinking about that. Like, what if you showed her something completely .... un-important (not the entire book was all top-secret..) Or you showed her something you yourself wrote. Then we would've kicked you out for nothing..? And the situation would've been different. There's so many.. possibilities of how things would've turned out if we didn't do this.... or that... Bleh.
 
Update Me On Your Life:
1. How far have you and David gone? (I love this stuff. Note how this is the fiirst question I ask you.)
 
2. How's highschool? Made any good friends? Join any groups or clubs? Good grades, I hope?
 
3. What happened between you and Frank? (I heard that you two went out for a bit...? Not really sure what happened afterwards.)
 
4. How's your family?
 
5. Are you still in touch with the other girls? Besides Tina and I?
 
That's all I can think of now.
 
And we really should hang out.
 
-Jeaniee.
 
 
P.S. I know a write a lot. I can't help it.
 

 

bubbles

Letter to Ex-Best Friend.

Posted on 2009.04.25 at 15:51
Current Mood: pissed off
Shayna,
 
I do remember that letter. I said a lot of stuff that I'm not sure if I mean now. Maybe I meant them in the moment.
 
I was hurt by the letter you had given me. You called me a "conniving little bitch" (you always had a very colorful vocabulary) and talked about Brenden, and how when he asked you out, I turned my ugly little face around (you also added a note about how I wasn't really ugly, you were just mad... lol). You also talked about how much you loved Tina and how you regretted going out with Keenan. And you ended the letter, I believe, with "I guess I love you deep deep deep deep deep down." I didn't keep that letter. After I read it, I cried a bit, then proceeded to rip it up, and then throw some of it out the bus window and chew on a fourth of it. When I got home, I took the little porcelain penguin thing you gave me for Christmas (remember?) and while on the phone with Noelle, I attempted to destroy it. But I couldn't. I still have it. It sits on my dresser, next to my lotion.
 
I remember thinking that I wanted to write an epic letter that was long and would hurt you as much as you hurted me. Actually I don't remember much that I wrote IN the letter. The only line that comes to mind when I think about it is that I want to forget you. And obviously, it's one of those lines you can't get over. You really shouldn't read it anymore
 
I hate that you apologized. I mean, a lot of shit happened between us, stuff that I wish hadn't happened. But it was as much my fault as it was yours.
Like the whole thing with Brenden. And me favoring Noelle and stuff. (What else brought about our downfall?)
The whole Brenden thing I regret. It was childish. Brenden wasn't even that great. And that was my fault. Even though I was hurt that my best friend was his girlfriend, I knew that it was my fault for not saying "yes" when he asked me out. Ugh. I NEVER admitted that before. But it's true. 15-Year-Old Jeanie knows that now. 13-year-old Jeanie was too immature and pathetic to admit it.
 
I know we didn't stop talking completely at the end of seventh grade. It was you being kicked out of the book that completely severed what little friendship we had at the moment, last year. I know it means nothing now, and you probably know this, but I didn't vote. And neither did Tina. Just because I didn't vote doesn't make me a good friend or whatever. I'm still the bad guy because I didn't stick up for you. I just let it happen. And I look back on that day, when they (or should I say "we"?) ambushed you, and told you that you were kicked out of the book. I can't imagine what that must have felt. And I am so truly, honestly, completely sorry. I've been dying to say that to you. Some friend I was. Some friends we were.
 
We were hypocrites. We kicked you out for showing the book to other people, for being disloyal. But here we were... committing the biggest act of disloyalty.
 
Things did not work out the way I wanted it to. I know you exist. I still think about you, and especially when me and Tina are reminiscing (spelling?) about our fabulous, but (VERY) dramatic seventh grade year, I think about how we were the bestest of friends. Even Noelle acknowledges how close we were. Weren't you my long lost twin? We even looked a bit alike. Remember how Jackson called us "The Foreheads"? hahahaha.
 
I've wanted to explain everything (or most of it) for such a long time. I can't really use age as an excuse for the shit I did to you, but I can't help it. I was young and stupid. Now I'm old and stupid.
 
I'm sorry.
 
--Jeanie.
 
P.S. I do not know Frank's email.


all time low bumblebees

Writer's Block: The Greenest Grass

Posted on 2009.04.19 at 17:58
Current Mood: headacheeee!
Current Music: Miracle- Paramore (I LOVE THIS SONG!)
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Who has it easier—men or women? Why or why not?

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Men. Definitely.

Men can....

  • Pee standing up. In cases where we're in a forest or something, camping perhaps, men can simply drop their trousers and do their business. Women? We have to squat, and not only that, we have to squat justttttt so so we wouldn't get urine down our leg or all over our foot. Blech.
  • Be players and not be ridiculed or whatever. They can sleep with whomever, and kiss whomever, and all that good stuff, and all they get is "Good job, man!" or "You hit that!" When girls do that, they are simply labeled as "whores."
  • NOT give birth. They don't have to push babies out of a vajayjayyyyy.
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There's much more to this list. But I do not feel like brainstorming some more.


turquoise dress

Baseball Games. And Buffets.

Posted on 2009.04.17 at 18:42
Current Mood: sore
Current Music: We Are Broken- Paramore

I just got home from the buffet with my parents.
All I have to say is...

WHY DO THEY DRAG ME TO THE BUFFET WHEN I AM NOT HUNGRY?! AND WHY DONT THEY TAKE ME OUT TO EAT WHEN I AM STARVING?!
Oh and...
HOW THE HELL DID THEY GET THE MONEY TO PAY FOR IT?!

My mom is unemployed now (bad economy + her company moved somewhere else= NOT HER FAULT!) and my dad's hours got cut. (Again- bad economy.)

Yesterday
Hung out all day with Noelle. Went to her house at 7:45 (I had to shower and stuff- so guess what time I woke up?) and went to Nottingham and Fowler's baseball game. Roberto is on Nottingham's team (he didn't play though) and Noelle's mannnnn is on Fowler's team. Fowler won by a point. I hate sports. Went downtown. Ate some pizza. Went home. Was very pooped out.
 
Still very pooped out.



ugly face

Writer's Block: Theme Song

Posted on 2009.04.17 at 18:16
Current Mood: full
Current Music: When It Rains- Paramore
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What song would you choose as the theme song for your life?


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I can't exactly give you a theme song. But I can give you a soundtrack, which I'll probably add to as I get introduced to new songs and stuff...
(These songs are in no particular order, and I'm consulting my mp3 for this list.)

The Soundtrack to Jeanie's Life
1. Circle- Marques Houston (falling in and out of love... this song definitely belongs on this list.)
2. Feel It Coming- Sara Melson
3. Handlebars- Flobots (I can ride my bike with no handlebars.. no handlebars....)
4. How Far We've Come- Matchbox Twenty (this song takes how I feel about the world, and puts them into words in ways I never would be able to.)
5. Lions, Tigers, & Bears- Jazmine Sullivan
6. Leave Out All The Rest- Linkin Park
7. Live Like You're Dying- Lenka
8. Lullaby- Newton Faulkner
(short, I wish it was like 3 minutes longer)
9. Moving Mountains- Usher

10. Perfect- Simple Plan (EVERY TEENAGER'S THEME SONG!)
11. The Climb- Miley Cyrus (like #9, this song refers to mountains.)
12. Thinking of You- Katy Perry
13. Come Home- One Republic

That's all I can think of....

LiveJournal is turning 10 and we're feeling nostalgic. What was your first LJ post about?


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blehhhh. my first post was when i was... well, a year younger (?)... and i was whining because all my friends had a love life but me.

i have matured, i swear. kind of.


oops

This topic deserves its own separate entry...

Posted on 2009.04.13 at 00:55
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Walk Away- Paula DeAnda (i just noticed this song works with this entry)


Why do we let boys be the center of the world? Why is it up to them if the sun is shining or not?

What I'm trying to say is...

Why do we let boys be in control of our moods? WHY do we give them the remote control to our emotions?


GAHHHH. DOES IT MAKE SENSE? I can't seem to word it the way I need to. But oh well. My point WILL get across.

What brought about this entry? My dear friend, Evangelina. This entry is not meant to be mean, or to make her mad, or to make fun of her or anything of that nature. It's to... make a point.

Since I brought up Vanni, I should tell you- not in full detail, of course, but the main gist of- her story.

Vanni likes this kid. They never went out, never were "boyfriend/girlfriend"(again, not trying to be all bitchy, but it's just a fact that would help this story make sense?) Suddenly, (about three weeks ago), he just starts ignoring her. No more holding her hand. No more cuddly stuff. No more kissing. He's just a complete arse to her now.

What would you do if the guy you like did that?

Well, me, personally? I would... give him the finger. Get on with my life. I'm young. There will be other crushes...

Vanni, however, is still depressed. She is an example of letting a guy completely control her in this way. Three weeks later, and she still wants him. She's pissed with him, she doesn't understand why he's being this way, they never were together so neither of them really have obligations to eachother, he's allegedly talking to his ex-girlfriend and apparently getting on with his life... but she won't let go.

I'm not saying that what he did was right. He's a complete asshole for just walking away like that. I thought he liked her. We all thought he liked her.

But now it's to the point where it's inexcusable for Vanni to be depressed and mopey.

I was hanging with her recently, and I tried to tell her there will be other guys, and all that, but she said, "He's all I want."

That makes me want to rip my hair out. That and the fact that, if you think about it, she's really just tormenting herself. She doesn't need to be this way. Vanni is beautiful, funny, unique... nevermind the fact that she also has the biggest rack I've ever seen... XD

So that brings me back to my question.

Are females really that weak?
 (I'm not saying all females are this way, but I would say a lot of us are...)
Are we really that weak that we can't just let it go, walk away....?
Because you KNOW boys can do it.
ARE WE MASOCHISTIC (or however you spell it)?


bubbles

12:48 AM

Posted on 2009.04.13 at 00:48
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Slow- Jamie Foxx (AHHH I LOVE THIS SONG! i love babymaking music :D)

What could I possibly do at 12:48 in the morning (now it's 12:49)?

Idk. I could... eat. Again. I could listen to music. Read. Call Roberto (although I already called him once. I had waken him up. I won't be that cruel again.).... Sleeping is not an option.

I'm bored!

My Easter was overall pretty lovely. We had ham, mashed potatoes and gravy, corn, coleslaw, pork stuffing, and chocolate and pumpkin pie (speaking of pumpkin pie... there's one slice left.... hmm...) How was your easter?
After we ate, me and Dalena and cousins and aunts and stuff played Rock Band. That was fun.
And then Berto came over. :D Me, him, and Lena hung out for a bit. No need to go into detail. Not much happened.



me and vanni minus vanni

Writer's Block: Confidences

Posted on 2009.04.11 at 12:46
Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: Over It- Katharine McPhee
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Who do you think it is easier to talk about your problems with: your friends, your family, or strangers?


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How often do I find myself spilling every gory detail about my life to complete strangers- in person or on the computer or on the phone? Often.
Unless you un-stranger-ize them, strangers will be nothing more than some random person you happened to run across. They don't know who you are, and won't judge you, and if they did judge you, it wouldn't matter because what are the chances of you seeing them again?

So I say strangers... but it's easy to talk to my friends also...

turquoise dress

Writer's Block: What is your name?

Posted on 2009.04.10 at 13:16
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Current Music: The Water- by Feist
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If you were to have another name, what would it be?

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Mia. I love that name, it's so simple and pretty. So is Isabella.
Or something quirky.. like Quinn or Nico.

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